True to her fashion, she assured me I would never have to leave if I still felt the same when I was older. She said I could always attend college while living with them, and her words and promises soothed me.
Of course, once I was a senior in high school, our conversation was almost long forgotten to me as I began excitedly envisioning life on a college campus; the thought of choosing a school so I could live with my parents never crossed my mind.
Then, over the coming months, as I found myself saying goodbye to my childhood home and the city where I'd grown up, I began to feel that old desire to never have to leave. That summer, as the days before I left for school grew fewer, I continually reminded myself, "change is good," as I tried to accept moving forward and letting go.
I've moved more than a few times since then, and each move, I've been faced with a combination of excitement for what lies ahead and sadness for what I'm leaving behind. Each place I've left has become part of me. Each new place I've come to love.
We opened and closed the doors to multiple chapters in those rooms; there we began dating, became engaged, and then married. In our little brick house we celebrated both our wedding days and became a family of four by welcoming two dogs into our lives.
It was where we spent our last hours together before E's two deployments and where we reunited following many long months apart. Then, between those walls, we transitioned from a military life to a civilian one.
The night my parents left me in my freshman dorm room, I was overwhelmed by a mix of sadness, happiness, and hope for the promise of what lie ahead; I strongly felt each of those emotions again in the tear-filled moment when E and I stood in our kitchen and said our final goodbye to a place brimming with more memories than we could count.
I've made my peace with letting go of our first home, although I know there will be days when I ache to return to that place and time in our past. And I'm happy to be moving forward as it means we're growing closer to having our "boys" home again.
We've begun house-hunting here in Houston and are looking forward to settling into a new set of rooms. Rooms that will provide the backdrop for new memories during this next chapter in our lives. Rooms that will also someday, though hopefully not too soon, be hard to leave behind as I find myself again working on moving forward. And letting go.
Such a moving post. I believe that we all go through these times over our lifetime. Enjoy your new home.
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This is such a beautiful, heartfelt post, C. Sending you hugs! xo
ReplyDeleteWhat a great post. Loved it. Hope the house search is going well! xx- Brooke
ReplyDeleteBeautiful post. Loved every word & image. xo
ReplyDeleteThese words are so encouraging to me. My husband just joined the Air Force and, for the first time, I'm facing moving away from my home town. Lovely, lovely post. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteSuch a sweet, sweet post. My husband and I are moving soon, I feel bittersweet about it as well. XX!
ReplyDeleteA lovely touching post, indeed.
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Judith
Such an amazing, heartfelt, beautiful post, my friend. Good luck on this move. You've got great perspective on everything. xoxo
ReplyDeleteCourtney, your post is just beautiful, and I know that your move will be a good one and as hard as it must be to move on, it's going to be exciting to hear about your new home!
ReplyDeleteHoping you have a wonderful weekend!
xo Mary Jo
I know just how you feel...I think....savouring the memories and mounting excitement for the challenges....bittersweet but in the best way, xv.
ReplyDeleteoh, i know just how you feel, courtney. (or i think i do.) i had similar feelings when steve and i packed up in atlanta and moved cross country to seattle. i truly hated to leave our home there. while there, we fell in love, got engaged and got married. i think about that home often. i miss it. but... with our move, i started my business and we found our dog. two very very good things! good luck to you in your new house hunt! pam
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I wish you well.
L.
How am I just now seeing this! So beautiful Courtney! Best of luck with your house search!!! Thinking of you! :) xx
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ReplyDeletewhat a beautiful and heartfelt post... have a great weekend!!!
ReplyDeletei just found you - and WOW sweetie - GREAT heart touching post! - i totally feel ya with moving and "home" ... here's to u and ur honey who serve for the greater good!
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Erika
~Tiptoe Butterfly~
Hi Courtney, this sounds like a nerve-wracking and exciting time in your life! I understand the complexity of the feelings one has when moving away from "home" and how it can be a challenge to make a new "place" "Home."
ReplyDeleteYour inspiring & positive outlook on life shines through in your writing and I am sure that you will find joy in the new place quickly.
All the best,
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What a beautiful post. I wish you years full of new memories in your new home.. if you're together, they'll be there :) xx
ReplyDeleteWow, wow, wow!!! I can't even express to you how much I can relate to this post. In fact, I was recently pondering about the many changes I have had and all the places I have been (AND the places I am going). Arizona...Utah....Denver.... and now we may even be moving again. You are so right when you say that we as people ache for our past, but should be happy to be moving forward. Beautiful post. Really. I loved it!
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well, i would like to wish you good luck with those old memories and the new ones that await you!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful post, it's a topic that touches everyone.
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Your post definitely touched my heart. My daughter, California born & raised just moved to Texas 3 months ago & it's been hard on her leaving every thing she's ever known to wander off somewhere new. It's incredibly hard on me, watching her go. I'm glad you took the time to write, it eased my pain a bit. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteLife is about change and moving forward. I have many traces of tears, both happy and sad, etched in my face over the years as I have said goodbye and hello throughout my life. What a beautiful and poignant post. I'm still wiping away tears.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful and heart felt post. Moving forward can be hard to do.
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such a beautiful and touching post.
ReplyDeleteI find myself in a similar situation.... and reading this post reminded me that I'm no alone! And it's ok!
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Just found your blog, I really did enjoy it.
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That is such a heartwarming post...both your words and images are so lovely and your story is touching, we all could feel the same way every now and then...As they say, we must embrace change to grow plus change brings so many possibilities. Good luck.
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